Tuesday, August 30, 2016

on a positive note

sheesh, i read through some of my most recent blogs, what downers.


there are indeed rainbow and sunshine days.

there are family dinner nights where we share and talk and laugh and new inside jokes are born.

there are spelling tests with 100s on them hung on our refrigerator.

there are stick figure pictures framed and hung in our hallway.

there are bedtime prayers together.

there are nighttime traditions we've made.

there are meaningful hugs.

there are successful family trips.

each child has rummaged through their room to find something to sell to help bring their sister Sparrow home.

each child opens and shares their vulnerability with us.

each child is eager to learn sign language to communicate with Sparrow.

each child prays for the kids still waiting on families in China.

each child has hopes and dreams for the future.

each child is finally a child now, snubbing their nose at pot roast because they can. and requesting a bowl of cereal for dinner in it's place.

yesterday was lucy's first day of homeschooling and it's going to be a great thing for both of us.
she's so excited to learn and try.  she's the most committed student i've known (before i was a mother i was a teacher), and the pride she has when she nails a concept uplifts me. she has fierce determination, a fighting will, and more perseverance than a snail trying to reach the ark.

y'all. older child adoption is hard, but it's worth it. you can do it.
it's not always rainbows and sunshine, but when the sun does shine, it shines brilliantly, and when the rainbow appears, it is a balm to hearts. it's worth it. it magnifies the relationship we have with Christ. we are not the ones who hurt our children, but we desperately want to love them through the scars. Christ is not the one who led us to poor choices and shame, but He desperately wants to love us back to a place of healing.

it grafts in hope. it grafts streams of love, pain, and triumph together and they flow becoming one beautiful and strong river.

it may not be the river everyone is meant to sail down, but it can be done. and it can be done with joy.

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." --John 14:27

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